HE-MAN!! HOOOO

Just got back from the gym for the second time and it feels GREAT! to be going back to the gym! I havent felt this good in a long time about myself in a longgggggg time. About 2 years since i stopped working out because of a certain someone (relationships make you lazy and fat).
Its going to be a tough gueling journey again, starting over from scratch at the gym but im willing to do it all over again to get back what i use to have, my pride and self-esteem. Not to sound like a faggot emo kid but with out them it feels theres no way i can progress in life right now.
speaking of all this work out stuff its been 30min since i ate my hard boild eggs (see what i mean by all this being tough, gotta eat healthy now) so gonna get ready to go for a run.

O yeah before that happens..IM DONE!! i finished all my community service hours today! yay! =D
got court tmrw so that means good bye $365 but once this is all done and taken care off im FREE of all this court bull shit Weeeeeeeeeee =D

Oh hi there

Im glad I forced myself out of bed today and went to community service. Not only am i now one day away from finishing my hours!
but made a new friend since we were stuck working together all day =P
Shes a pretty cool chick to talk too and it was nice to talk to someone who knows what im going through right now.

I guess nothing last forever right?

later gator

After 4 days of ignoring me she finally agrees to talk and she ends it. Its a shame, Just yesterday i was looking at this old picture of us and thought to myself ' man , i look forward to spending the rest of my days with this girl'.

Guess i fucked up somewhere.

If this makes her happy then i wont keep trying anymore.

This was a first

So for the first time ever i finally broke down and teared up a little over all my problems with court, these community service hours and all this other bullshit i have to deal with on my own and my mom happen to walk in. It was hard telling my mom all the issues im having right now with money and my life. My parents help but they can only help so much with there own money issues.

Credit cards, tickets,time. Not only are those killing me but my bank continuously keeps screwing me over with Fee's for everything little thing and those little fee's keep adding up.
I need help so bad to get myself out of this hole im in.